Crush

How long will I have to wait.

How much time has been alreadly wasted on pride and societies boundaries.

Yes these are the reasons mainly keeping us apart.

Delusions of mine.

Is that we will be together in time.

When, where i dont know.

Delusions invade my head i know its not so.

Then we will come together at last.

A meeting in a seculded corner of a pub i will be so nervous, trying so hard not to make mistakes.

Chit chat and other small talk not noticing the surroundings or the people passing to and fro.

Where you have been? where you are going? I doubt I will concentrating just focusing on your image.

Burning through my heart and soul imressed on my mind forever.

I will different be to what you remember. I have managed to sort my life out since we saw eachother last.

I think you will be impressed.

I will notice the changes in you both of us, much older and wiser, not too confident to take it further.

Been through too much, too much baggage as guys will say.

We are just best friends, never to cross that line.

You know me too well. We go back too far. you see into my soul too well. Knowing why, what and because.

You dont, i do, think my mind will play tricks, delusions taking over two worlds coliding in the universe.

Meserised by you.I think I am ill I either got flu or a crush on you. I wont say anything fear of rejection.

Would be too much, fear of you knowing I love you, fear partly of you saying yes. I love you too. crush they call it because if you say no I will be crushed.

When I see it will be akward the silence the shuffling of feet. Not looking at eachother embarressed and shy its not you, its me, maybe its better if we dont see eachother.